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AN OPEN LETTER TO THE LITTLE HATER IN MY HEAD.

Dear Little Hater in my head,

F*ck you blud. I need to make something very clear with you. While I realize I may never be rid of you entirely and that we are inseperably linked because I am a human being and reside in the United States of Amerika, I refuse to engage with you in the same way I always have. Little Hater, you and I have shared too many meetings to recall and these meetings have taken place in a frequency that exhausts both of us. 

I guess what I’m trying to communicate to you is that I think we need some time apart. I would be lying if I thought you’d never been of assistance to me in my life. I remember the time I considered skydiving and you kept shouting “you’ll fall out of a f*cking airplane and f*cking die, C!” Now insome respects, you might have saved my life LH. I may have gone up in that plane, leaped into the abyss, my chute might now have opened and BLAOW: Senbei pancake. On the other hand, your hateristic ways MIGHT have kept me from one of the most exhilirating experiences of my life.

When you told me not to make Hip-Hop music, because “no one would listen to a Japanese-whiteboy,” you were wrong. When you told me no woman would love me, for me, you were wrong. When you told me the people I could hang out with were relegated to my race, class, gender and sexual orientation, you were wrong. When you told me this letter was the corniest sh*t you’d ever seen, you MIGHT have been right…but more importantly than feeling smart or cool, is my letting you know our relationship is about to change.

From now on, if I know I want something, I aint even gonna engage in a dialogue with you about it. If something presents itself that will assist me and those I love in our future aspirations for greatness, I’ma make it happen. If you try and stop me, I’ma burp and blow it in your face. The fact is, you’ve abused the power you have over me for far too long and I become fed up. You’ve kept me from my goals for the majority of my life and I think this codependant relationship has run it course.

I realize fully, that I need you in my life in SOME ways. However, the way we’ve interacted with each other in the past will never be the same again. I will look to you in the future at times, to remind me of my supreme insignificance when I grow arrogant and overconfident. At the same time, I will not continue to allow you from reaching my vast potential. In other words, IT’S NOT ME, IT’S YOU.

I’m sure I’ll see you around sometime Little Hater in my head, but I think it’s important that we not see each other for a good amount of time. Don’t call me, I’ll call you. In the meantime, I’ll be staying with the Little Lover in my head.

[Look Baby, they're playin' our song!]

Later,
Senbei

p.s. F*ck you blud.